Today was a good day. I awoke very late in the morning but managed to make it to the end of the Saturday morning meeting, a small group of us went and had bagels for lunch. Or breakfast as it were for me.
Today I cleaned out my car and found Ambers CD Walkman under the passanger seat. Alfred and Kylie came around and picked me up at 3pm. We went to their friends Pip, and Brents, Kylie took some photos, we had coffee, we chatted, nice people. Afterwards we went to Real Groovy, Alf bought some DVD’s, then we had more coffee at Fidels. We sat in the front window and talked about nothing and everything.
Tonight I chilled out at home with Mark I had chicken soup for dinner and we watched the Last Samurai. It was the second time I have seen it, the first time was with Amber - we both cried, it was our second date. She rocks! (hey babe)
I have always admired the Samurai culture (spot the kendo guy top right) and I have always had a deep sence of empathy with their way of life however when I compare the way I have lived my life it doesnt weigh up. Sometimes I do Yoga, sometimes I meditate, and I do my NA meetings all because I beleive it is all a part of a journey to inner peace. I keep messing it up though. I’ll look at porn, I might think degrading thoughts, or I’ll hassle people I dont understand (normaly lefties and lazy people) and all it does it ruin my serenity. All I want is to be happy, and to share it with the people I love (hey babe) live an honest life, and do the best I can.
My mind is my worst enemy and the cause of all my pain.
Paul said a very similar thing ;)